Well now here we are agian...

So just when I think I am fine and ok with life, I thrown a monkey wrench in the whole situation. I have been so dumb and stupid the last couple of days. Stepping out of God's will trying to take what he has for me too soon. Figures I would ruin an almost perfect gift from the Lord! How human we are, just because you are not sinning now. Thank God that he protects you everyday from yourself. How often do we look at someone and say, "I don't sin as much as them." FOOLS! We are so quick to put the mirror of the perfect Christ to other people, but we are so prideful to place it at ourselves. We have no problem judging others when we need to be examining our own hearts. We are here and breathing, but only by grace of God almighty. You know it’s funny As much as I hate falling it to sin it is such a slap in the face that I would be nothing without Christ in my life. He owns all weather I give it to Him or not, He will not take it but he owns it none the same. We are like little children holding on to filth when Christ has a banquet set up for us. Why do we do this, because of the lies, deceptions of the enemy and our own flesh. We lie to ourselves and say thing like "Oh this is just the way I am, I can't stop." So naive we are to the lies of the enemy. So the deal is this I could possibly leave the Honor Academy. That is one of the consequences for what I have done. I, as much as I don’t want it to come, am ready to take this. I just wanted you all to know my heart. Why do we hide who we really are?

Hi, my name is Stephen Meinke. I am a lusting, prideful, sexual-driven, arrogant, boastful human. Well I would be without the grace of God in my life. What lies we say when we can do it all on our own? Wow what a lie this is because without God in my life that is what you are a rotten dirty filthy sinner. Thank the merciful God for the gift on His son so you do not have to be what your flesh is. Make your flesh pay. Die to it every day. Make it be in submission to you. Now I am not say that this will not take effort, No, controlling you flesh with Christ will take every once of strength in your body, and even if you try you WILL fail a part form the Lord's help in your life. So I hope that me being open has caused you to examine your own hearts. What are you compromising on? Are you trying to do it on your own? Do you hide who you really are? Those questions cannot be asked by the author but only by the reader.